Sometimes, yes, sometimes

I guess sometimes I take things too far. I don't consider myself an emotional person. If anything I am callous. But because I care, because things matter to me, I sometimes can't stand the unpleasantness of life, especially not if they keep repeating, and repeating.

But my last two entries (written right after each other) are not good displays of how I am really feeling, just an insight into the constant inner-turmoil I am facing, when I choose to acknowledge it.

If anything in college, I have learned a lot about myself and how others work. It has exposed me to new ways of thought and new and sometimes unbearable challenges. I wish sometimes I could wash it all away, but in the end it's for the best.

I don't know what I am saying. I am enveloped...

Whenever the ancient tide will turn,
whenever I see what I have scorned,
whenever I will realize who I am
Whenever the pieces fall to sand...